Monday, May 31, 2010

how soon is now?

Riddles often don't beg solutions, but choice. And so the riddles remain, their understanding somewhat improved. Most deceptive are those riddles intimate with their solution; their alloy betraying all hopes of choice. How many ways to choose are aborted by such prejudice? By solution?

Consciousness is most effective when gauging differential. This is stimulating, and the conscious mind will crave it. Much harm has been done by the sheer ability for the consciousness to create it for itself.

What is confusion? To crack it as one would some lexical geode, it appears to be a contradictory state wherein competing thoughts are co-mingled beyond individual discernment. What then rises to decipher it?

This imminence of present-mindedness is a messy, messy business. How 'thick' is the now? Thick enough for the mental space required for efforts of projection into the past or future. But it must fluctuate also, determined by those minds consensual of the shared moment. Also, I still do not trust the idea of 'being in the now'... what does that mean? Opening the senses? Reading the symbols? Destroying the past/future (both of which a could be said to take the form of remembrance)? Taken too literally, we might spite our gifts of intelligence.

Tractable familiarity saddens me, which might be why I get upset when people forget that they've already told me something. It makes me feel interchangeable with anyone else. This interchangeability is likely all too true, hence my sadness. When someone's warmth ebbs and flows, I am distressed, perhaps because at that point I am more them than they are me.

2 comments:

The Necromancer said...

I miss your linguistic esoterica...It reflects a level of sensitivity and perceptiveness rare in this world. Would be nice to hear its mellifluous tones again soon...

Rachel said...

I understand being present as being the ultimate in awareness: incorporating every instance of the past/future that lives within your cells as resonant memory, taking in everything around you with all your physical senses, and then interpreting/understanding the collective meaning of said inputs.

At it's best, "the moment" is a place where time stops, that is, becomes irrelevant because past/present/future are all one.

I call this experience transcendence and usually encounter it while immersed in music.